Today was Carley's first day of day care. I always knew it would make me sad to leave. I figured I would drive off with the whimsical tear glistening on my cheek. Instead, I cried. I cried and cried and cried and cried. Man, I didn't think it would hurt so bad. I read one time that being a mom means your heart walks around in someone else's body. I felt that today. My heart was with Carley.
Carley did good. She loves Granny (the sweet lady who keeps her) and enjoyed watching other kids. I just think it was overwhelming for her to be gone from me for so long with all new kids around her.
Being a working mom is a blessing and I enjoy my job so much. I was so glad to see Carley when it was time to pick her up and tonight she and I had the best evening just playing and rocking. I have said it before, I have the best of both worlds because I have a job that I love and a family I love coming home to each day. It is just amazing the overflow of emotions you have when you leave your child. Is it weird that I just want to strap her on my back and tote her around with me for the next 18 years?
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That's not weird at all -- but completely normal!
Glad the first day went good though (except for the crying part) and that Carley enjoyed her new place to play.
Have you found a spare elephant yet?
I hate to admit this, but that is exactly how you feel every time your kids take a step away from you -- to kindergarten, to college --- to AFRICA! Or Alabama. Or Portland. But do not worry, you will not dehydrate from the tears, in fact there will be plenty more where those came from when you need them. Savor the flavor! And treasure the blessing.
Love, Jill Sr.
Well, that made me cry! Esp. the part about your heart being with someone else. I'm glad Carley enjoys Granny and that you found a safe place for her to stay.
I think I would like to tote my child around for at least his first 30 years of life--just to make sure he is okay!
I bet Carley will be the social butterfly just like her mama and will love spending time with kids everyday and will love even more the moment you walk into the room to pick her up after work.
Hope your school year gets off to a great start!
I cried and cried the entire first week I took Caroline to day care. I promise, it does get easier. Especially when they are 2! :)
Ok, sorry to post again, but I wanted to tell you that it probably will take some time for Carley to adjust to day care too. It did for Caroline. First, she has to adjust to the other kids. When the other kids cry or squeal, she has to adjust to a new "noise level." It is just different than being at home with you. Plus, Carley will have to adjust to Granny and how she does things. I'm sure Granny is great (because you wouldn't have chosen her otherwise), but she probably does things differently than you. Anyway, give Carley a couple of weeks and see how she does. I expect she will really enjoy it and being around the other children. I know Caroline became quite the socialite after she started day care. Please call me if you want to cry or vent. I have been there and expect that I will be there again when John starts day care! Remember, the first week is the hardest- for both you and Carley. It only gets easier! Lots of love!
I am proud of both of you!! I know that Carley will do great- your days will go quickly, and you will both adjust:) love you!
I want to tote Jackson around for at least 18 years also (maybe more). I bet Carley will love day care and will love playing with all of her new friends.
Great post Ashley. Very sincere. I can't imagine how hard that was for you. I'm excited for the mini-reunions you will have each day when you pick her up. I'm proud of you!
And I loved the stories of the high school reuinion! Good observations, as always.
Oh, Ash. I completely know how you feel. You are such a good mommy and Carley is one of the cutest kids ever, and I am so glad you are cherishing the time you have with her. Will you pick me up on your way home, too?!!
Love always,
Marcy
well I don't know what it feels like to drop off my child ... but after working at a daycare for a while, I saw many crying mommies! They would always just break my heart. (But I always loved those moms the best!) You guys will do great.
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